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Expertise: deep conversations. cuddling. lilo & stich. mira mesa. tom buk hun and pho. fishing. marlboro menthols. beats. raspberry brisk. funny faces. ska/reggae dancin. kickbacks. scribblin on my note pad. feedin' ducks. sleepin'. laffin till my stomach hurts.
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12/22/2002
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MiDDLE FiNGER -
Maria Isabel
b.k.a. Mai or Bel | | |
| what should be my new xanga name ?
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| Went to Pasadena yesterday, instead of Saturday. Downtown Pasadena is nice, I wouldn't mind takin a trip back over there to go shoppin'. So anyway, we went to the RitzCarlton where my cousin, her husband and son were stayin.
DE-AMN. Talk about ballin'. I could have sat there and sat in the shade beside the pool all day..sippin on a smoothie! HAHA, my mom wouldn't let me get a margarita. =[ That hotel is just lovely. You know they heat up their towels before they hand 'em to you at the pool? HAHA, that's too much man. My cousin's son Noah is just adorable. After he learned my name all kept sayin was "Where ATE MAI ?! ATE MAI ! ATE MAI !" HAHA. We ate dinner at PF CHANG's.
Bomb ass food as usual. I was trippin' over my fortune cookie tho. It said, " Your place in life is in the drivers seat. " That's just a coincidence that right now I am trying to get my life together.
GOALS TO ACCOMPLISH :
+ Take care of school : enroll @ New Directions Independent Study - Go to Mt. Caramel get transfer forms
+ Get my broke ass a job : fill out applications, get more
+ Behind-the-wheel : If anyone has the number to Bakker's or Aguilar's training, drop me a line.
+ Save money for car : at least 1G for down payment
I'll leave you with Noah singin' Twinkle Twinkle Little Star.
=] Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrato! | | |
| Shy called me around 7:30 this morning and told me to get ready. Around 8:10 she scooped me up and we headed off to the school for registration. Well actually, I didn't fill out any of my papers since I'm planning on gettin out of there. So I escorted Shy around. I talked to this one lady since you couldn't talk to your counselors, and she gave me an application for independent study. I told her I wasn't sure if I was going to do the one here, or the one I had before in SD. So I have to decide. I already know how the one in SD works, meet with your teacher once a week for a few minutes to turn in and recieve work and every few weeks take a final. Pretty simple. I also want to go back to the one because if I do, I'll be enrolled under Mt.Caramel so when I do graduate, I'll walk with MC. =] I started havin second thoughts when I saw my schedule because I had some good classes, but eh. I have to do what's best.
" The past is behind us, just forget about it. We can have a future, together, just you and me. "
After registration Shy dropped me off at Danny's. Man, I was scared, I was sweatin. HAHA. Well we ended up workin everything out. He told me how he already decided he wasn't going to leave me because of all the things we've done for each other, it would be a waste to throw it all away now. 'sigh, I missed him so much these past few days. I wish I could of stayed longer but I had to be home around 3 because I had to watch Les [thats him in the picture]. Gilbert picked me up around 2. I picked up some job applications before I went home, hopefully get some more tomorrow.
Man what chu know about my man Leeeeeeeee?!
Gorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgeous.
I got stuck watching Enter the Dragon, Return of the Dragon, and Fists of Fury over and over. My favorite? Fists of Fury man, he go back home to the country. HAHA, yeah you know I'm about the country. | | |
| Real quick, before I head out, I want to update.
- Today Shy and I are goin to look for a job. First we gotta drop by the school so she can get an emergency card, and I'ma try and talk to my counselor because I might not attend that stupid ass school. Afterwards we're goin to run around and get applications. When we're finished doin that, Shy is bein nice enough to take me to see Danny. We're havin problems. =[ So yeah, I want to go see him and work everything out, hopefully we do. I had a conversation with my dad last night and I guess he's trying to accept Danny, because he never knew about him before until just recently. That just makes me more upset, because I don't know what's going to happen with us.
I love you, don't ever fuckin question that.
- I think it's about that time again I get my life together. I dropped summer school, so that means I take MATH again, and during my senior year. SHIT. I know myself good enough by now to know that I probably won't attend class everyday, especially a class that I hate. I guess I got over bein that diligent student I used to be. Now I just want to get it over with and graduate. I'm going back to independent study, so I can just work and go to school once a week. I can't just be goin around havin fun with my friends and partyin everyday. It's time to make a U-Turn.
I'll return to this when I come back.
- EDiT 11:53AM -
- Well things didn't go as planned and I'm really disappointed. Shy called me when I was almost done gettin ready and told me her Aunt took her keys. Da da da da damn. I called Danny and told him we weren't going to make it. He sounded as if he didn't care so I got all upset. Then blah blah blah we talked for a little bit. I told him how I felt, how it was killin me to feel as if the fate of our relationship was lying in my hands and it was too much for me along with everything else going on in my life. It takes two in a relationship, I can't do it by myself, I need YOU beb. 'sigh. I asked him to reassure me because I was really worrying myself with stupid shit..then he said that no matter what happens he'd always love me. What we've found is hard too find, and we've been thru a lot, there's no reason to throw it all away now. 'sniff sniff. I really want to see him right now. Things aren't going my way these days, it's terrible. I don't feel like myself. Maybe I just need time..or more like patience. | | |
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